Religious Realization

I am sitting here and was discussing how being at home was different than being at school with my fiancé and I came to a huge realization. While being at school I feel free, thought provoking, and even more at peace or happy; being at home is almost the complete opposite. Then it hit me. Maybe Im trying to make my thoughts, and even my religious views cater to me and conform to my life in order to make me feel productive or thoughtful. Instead of me conforming myself to striving to find the peace and happiness that comes with being a true Child of God. Have you ever done that? Have you ever tried to make your religion conform to you? At least for me, it leaves a thirst and a desire to humble myself and take those feelings captive so I may have a deeper knowledge and love of my religion instead of hating it for leaving me empty. Truth is, if we're waiting for religion to come to us and make us feel complete, we never will. But if we seek God and yearn for the completeness that comes only through a right relationship with Him then and only then will we begin to feel complete.